Exam blues

Hello hello hello loyal readers and ardent fans, contrary to what you might believe, I'm not dead. But, I'm well on my way to being so. Since I've been away for so long, here's an update for you guys.

The reason I've been MIA for so long? Blame it on the tons of tutorials and projects we had to do. Work never seemed to end, its like the more I do, the more it gets. If you asked me, homework breeds like rabbits in heat. Sigh. Thankfully its all over now, with the impending closure of the semester. Surprisingly, we managed to not only save our asses for the SS project, but we actually outshone ourselves and secured an A+. Woohoo. Damn I'm good. What, it was a team effort? Oops...hehheh. Mushroom and the others were bugging me for a treat that I apparently owed them and of which I have totally no recollection of saying so, for the A+. Sigh, such is the curse of excellence. Luckily, heaven is fair and I'm not blessed with overwhelming intelligence. After all, I did get a B for my stupid GEM term paper. Ok I admit, I still feel pissed about it. Why couldn't Harry give me a better grade? After all the weeks of effort put into my family tree, I thought I was looking at a B+ at least. Sigh. It makes no sense. And Cheryl got herself a B+. Damnation. There's something in Arts students that automatically puts them ahead in the race compared to other suckers from Science or Engine etc...maybe its genetic. Or maybe I'm just stupid. Oh well.

Exams are here. And I'm going nuts from the stress. The best part about my exam schedule is, I had 2 papers on my very first day, both of which had essays as a component. Sigh. My brain literally blanked out halfway through the 2nd paper, everything I've read and memorised just got formatted off my neural harddrive in an instant. And so, it was time for me to use the age old skill of 'smoking'. Haha. Well I can't say I managed to smoke my way out of the woods, but thinking back, I'm quite proud of myself for my efforts. Hey, it was a brave attempt ok? Don't rub it in, I already feel kinda suicidal as it is. Today's SS paper was an experience and eye opener at the same time. I don't believe I've written more than what I've written today in the same amount of time given. Man, my hand suffered a cramp from all the scribbling during the paper itself. Worse, my handwriting looked like chicken scratchings. I just hope Kamal is able to decipher my words, maybe she will appreciate the challenge, she seems bored often anyway. Lol. Another noteworthy incident: while I was doing my question 1 of the paper, I caught a glimpse of this girl sitting 2 seats diagonally to my right. She was staring blankly at her questions paper, and after a couple of minutes, she picked up her pen, scribbled something on her answer booklet, before staring into space again. This continued for 15minutes or so, before she apparently decided to call it quits, laid down her pen and her head on the table, and promptly went to sleep. Lol. She is the champion. I take my hat off to her. As things are, I've still got one more paper left sometime next week. Stupid statistics module simply cannot arrange a proper exam date. I mean, 5 May? Wtf? I've got myself 10 days to rot and to goad myself back into the mugger lifestyle again. Why can't my agony end earlier? I so look forward to finding a part time job, I'm really quite broke. Anymore expenditures, and I will be living Joshua's lifestyle of eating bread and drinking plain water. Sigh.

My love life hasn't seen much progress since I last left off either. Just 2 weeks ago or so, on my way to school, I got a glimpse of Grace and her boyfriend at the Kent Ridge bus stop. Just when I thought I've finally rid myself of unwanted emotional attachments, they all surfaced again in an instant. Sigh. I confess, I did feel a twinge of jealousy seeing them being so happy together. But its all in the past now, and I suppose the best I could do is to wish them both all the best. That or actually finding myself a girlfriend. Heh. Speaking of old flames, I met my old 'flame' from secondary school a couple of times these few weeks. Old 'Flame' as in I-like-her-but-she-thinks-I'm-a-retard kind of relationship. Point is, I've gotten over her long ago, but it makes no sense not to part as friends, but somehow she just doesn't seem keen on befriending me again. Oh well, its her loss by not making friends with such a suave and ahem..outstanding person like me. Lol. That's the exam stress talking. On another note, I did find out from Jingyao's intelligence services that Weiyee was leaving for Malaysia on the 15th, but upon confirmation, she told me she was actually going to Sabah first from the 8th to the 13th. Damn that doesn't give me any time to ask her out at all. Besides, she won't be back until term starts. Things never seem to go my way especially in the love department. Well, I offered my services to help her clear her room before she leaves, now the ball is in her court. Sigh.

That's all for today, updates will come as and when I'm free, i.e when I'm not sleeping my time away or mugging. Stay tuned folks, to my wonderfully sad life.